I Exist

Nov. 23rd, 2016 07:13 pm
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No one sees me. I work, I eat, I sleep. My life is monochromatic. There are no extremes. I exist, but do I live?

At work, I am forever forgotten. I walk in as unacknowledged as when I leave. The woman in the cubicle next to me doesn't know my name. We've worked side by side for three years.

There are no ups or downs. There is only the status quo. I exist, but do I want to live?

Strangers skip over me. There's no friendly banter, no smiles, no eye contact. I frequent the same businesses over and over. I never receive recognition. I remain alone in a sea of faces.

There are no depths of emotion. No peaks to aspire to. I exist, but I want to live.

I have found a book. A book of rituals and spells. I don't believe in such things, but there is one that calls to me. My days are filled with thoughts of how my existence could change. My life could become more.

This is obsession. Obsession is new to me. I exist, but I want to live!

The ritual is nearly complete. With the last word from my lips, something shifts. From nothing, before me, steps a creature of nightmares. I don't know what I expected, but it wasn't this. For the first time, terror courses through my veins. It looks into my eyes and sees me.

The status quo is shattered. It's smile haunts my dreams. It hunts me. I am alive now, but how much longer will I exist?


This is my entry for LJ Idol: S10 Week 1. The topic this week was I need the struggle to feel alive.
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