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"Alright, let's work on spinning back side kicks!" my instructor shouts out.

This is the part I've dreaded. My balance is shot after having to quit. I've been out of karate for nearly two years. A herniated disc in my back derailed by quest for fitness for awhile. Depression from the pain and lack of activity set me back even more. I'm just now feeling healed enough to begin karate again, physically and emotionally.

I spin my whole body with forced enthusiasm. My feet stick slightly to the mat and I don't make it all the way around. I stumble, unbalanced by the kick I throw. The spins always get me. They were a problem before also.

I was 280 lbs. when I started karate the first time. I weigh more now, though not by a lot. I have less muscle now then I did then. I feel ungainly and ridiculous. This is such a different feeling than the enthusiasm of my very first class.

"Point your heel," he says. My instructor walks over to me. He takes up a stance and demonstrates for me. "Take that planted foot that you are spinning on and rotate your heel just before you spin. Point the heel at your target."

I take a deep breath and follow his instructions. I take my time to set up and think about what I just saw him do. Suddenly, I spin beautifully. I feel coordinated and balanced for just a moment. My kick strikes out with snap and confidence.

"Great kick."

I smile. Maybe I can find that enthusiasm again.


This is my entry for LJ Idol: S10 Week 6. The topic this week was “Heel Turn".

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Date: 2017-01-23 01:14 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] mac-arthur-park.livejournal.com
Great take on the prompt!

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Date: 2017-01-23 03:25 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] sweeny-todd.livejournal.com
*cheers loudly to help with enthusiasm!!!!*

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Date: 2017-01-23 03:30 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] rayaso.livejournal.com
This was an excellent use of the prompt! Coming back from that kind of injury must be long and painful. I hope you make a 100% recovery.

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Date: 2017-01-23 06:23 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] fireheart13.livejournal.com
That's awesome!! Kudos to your teacher for breaking it down and working with you. Also, if there is something you can;t do, they can have you do something else. Maybe a kick without the spin or something. I'm alost at a year returning to class from my shoulder, and there are still something I can;t do (like getting taken down).

The best thing is you are in there and you are moving, The rest will come :-)

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Date: 2017-01-24 12:08 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] halfshellvenus.livejournal.com
Nice, and I hope that good feeling carries forward as you get back into doing things.

Back problems are such grief, and I'm glad things are better now.

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Date: 2017-01-24 10:27 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] penpusher.livejournal.com
Perfect use of the prompt and good wishes for continued success in kicking up your heels!

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Date: 2017-01-27 11:55 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] eternal-ot.livejournal.com
Cool. It made me happy that you found the enthusiasm back. Cheers!

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Date: 2017-01-27 03:17 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] my-name-is-jenn.livejournal.com
Great use of the prompt. I hope you can find that enthusiasm again. :)

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Date: 2017-01-27 05:08 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] bewize.livejournal.com
Absolutely! Good luck!
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