life goals
Jul. 3rd, 2003 08:28 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
kajelThis week I have found myself highly motivated to do things I have always meant to do. Some of my motivation is that I have discovered I have a life and a future with Ned, but that is only a very small part of this. I have been moving toward these goals for 2 years now.
On Tuesday, July 1st I started a regimen to get into better health. It isn't that I am trying to lose weight, I have discovered that I don't care about my weight anymore. I want to be healthier and ,yes, more fit. If I lose some weight in the process, then that is an added bonus.
Diabetes runs in my family. My grandfather is a very brittle diabetic. He has been on an insulin pump for over 30 years. Besides other health issues, that is my most worrisome. And there is also my headaches. When I cut out the processed sugars and wheat from my diet, only eating whole grains, my headaches fade away. Or at least they are a lot less frequent. This is a huge motivation. Yes, I need to see a doctor about my headaches, but I have no insurance at the moment.
As for getting more fit, the biggest joy in my life used to be riding horses. I went riding with a friend last summer, and when I got home I cried. I felt like a sack of potatoes bouncing around. I didn't have the muscle I used too. I also felt that I was too heavy for the comfort of the horse. This wasn't true. Jack was a horse that could handle the weight, but it was how I felt.
Dealing with all the emotional issues this brought up has been a long hard road. I have had the determination, but not the will to do something about it. Now I think I am in a state of mind where I have the determination and the will to succeed.
I don't think I can do it alone, but I have a wonderful network of friends and family, that just keeps growing, to give me all the inspiration, motivation, and encouragement I need.
On Tuesday, July 1st I started a regimen to get into better health. It isn't that I am trying to lose weight, I have discovered that I don't care about my weight anymore. I want to be healthier and ,yes, more fit. If I lose some weight in the process, then that is an added bonus.
Diabetes runs in my family. My grandfather is a very brittle diabetic. He has been on an insulin pump for over 30 years. Besides other health issues, that is my most worrisome. And there is also my headaches. When I cut out the processed sugars and wheat from my diet, only eating whole grains, my headaches fade away. Or at least they are a lot less frequent. This is a huge motivation. Yes, I need to see a doctor about my headaches, but I have no insurance at the moment.
As for getting more fit, the biggest joy in my life used to be riding horses. I went riding with a friend last summer, and when I got home I cried. I felt like a sack of potatoes bouncing around. I didn't have the muscle I used too. I also felt that I was too heavy for the comfort of the horse. This wasn't true. Jack was a horse that could handle the weight, but it was how I felt.
Dealing with all the emotional issues this brought up has been a long hard road. I have had the determination, but not the will to do something about it. Now I think I am in a state of mind where I have the determination and the will to succeed.
I don't think I can do it alone, but I have a wonderful network of friends and family, that just keeps growing, to give me all the inspiration, motivation, and encouragement I need.
