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Well I have done my introductory, no personal information entry. Now about me. Where to start is always the problem. I think I will begin with 2 years ago and my move to New York. Albany has been really good to me. Here I have found someplace to heal and discover who I am. I have come to terms with several issues that were beginning to rule my life.
The first was weight. I have finally accepted that this is who I am. I don't need to change for anyone else. I am beautiful and anyone who doesn't think so, doesn't see me. That was a lifelong struggle, and I am finally feeling peace in it.
The second was more difficult. I had never found any significant person to share my life with. I was 27 years old and never been in love. It was quite a maelstrom of emotions I was going through. About 9 months ago, I gave up. I said to myself 'If I never find anyone to share my life with I can be ok with that.' I gave up literally and let the emotions go.
In so doing, I found peace. I had truly accepted that I might be alone. And then, at the end of March, the strangest thing happened. A whirlwind entered my life and sucked me in. That whirlwind was Ned. Yes, the situation is complicated. Yes, there are issues that have to be dealt with. In the end it is all worth it.
I have been pulled out of a shell I knew I was in to play with a whirlwind. I look down from time to time and realize my feet are firmly planted on the ground. I might be caught up, but it is very real.
I have found my heart's desire. For the first time I think I am living fully outside of my walls, outside of my shell. And life is wonderful.
The first was weight. I have finally accepted that this is who I am. I don't need to change for anyone else. I am beautiful and anyone who doesn't think so, doesn't see me. That was a lifelong struggle, and I am finally feeling peace in it.
The second was more difficult. I had never found any significant person to share my life with. I was 27 years old and never been in love. It was quite a maelstrom of emotions I was going through. About 9 months ago, I gave up. I said to myself 'If I never find anyone to share my life with I can be ok with that.' I gave up literally and let the emotions go.
In so doing, I found peace. I had truly accepted that I might be alone. And then, at the end of March, the strangest thing happened. A whirlwind entered my life and sucked me in. That whirlwind was Ned. Yes, the situation is complicated. Yes, there are issues that have to be dealt with. In the end it is all worth it.
I have been pulled out of a shell I knew I was in to play with a whirlwind. I look down from time to time and realize my feet are firmly planted on the ground. I might be caught up, but it is very real.
I have found my heart's desire. For the first time I think I am living fully outside of my walls, outside of my shell. And life is wonderful.
