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kajelI have made a couple of life changing decisions in the last couple of weeks.
Ned and Jeni's divorce should be final in October. I have decided to move to Charlotte at the end of November. This is a huge change. I am leaving my family and Jeni in New York. Jeni really likes Albany and is going to stay here for awhile. We are both suddenly trying to get prepared for this. She was expecting it, but not nearly this soon.
Mine and Jeni's friendship is as strong as ever. Any issues that this whole situation brings up are being dealt with one at a time. Not to say that there hasn't been some strain. There has, but we have dealt with them well and will deal with the ones still to come.
Leaving my family will be difficult, but they are within a days drive. Not nearly as far away as the one other time I moved away. I will miss the easy friendship that my sisters and I have as adults now. I expect to visit often though. I can't have my nephew forgetting who his favorite aunt is.
Moving always brings a lot of change. I am anticipating this move though. I wish it could be done sooner. A new beginning. A new phase to my life. Not without it's hazards though. The stress of planning a move, my finances, worrying about my family, about Jeni....it adds up. I haven't slept well the last couple of weeks. Lack of sleep is starting to wear me down. I am going to need a vacation after I move.
I am beginning to settle down though. I think the stress and lack of sleep are from the initial, Oh Lord can I do this. Not, not wanting too, but financially in the time-frame I am planning for. I have had my initial burst of scrambled panic. Tends to put me into planning mode. That mode allows me to gather data and sort through minute details. Allows me to reflect on my decision and dislodge any illusions I may have. Then I can settle down into my decision and work toward my goal. I am settling down now. This is a good thing, maybe I can sleep again.
Ned and Jeni's divorce should be final in October. I have decided to move to Charlotte at the end of November. This is a huge change. I am leaving my family and Jeni in New York. Jeni really likes Albany and is going to stay here for awhile. We are both suddenly trying to get prepared for this. She was expecting it, but not nearly this soon.
Mine and Jeni's friendship is as strong as ever. Any issues that this whole situation brings up are being dealt with one at a time. Not to say that there hasn't been some strain. There has, but we have dealt with them well and will deal with the ones still to come.
Leaving my family will be difficult, but they are within a days drive. Not nearly as far away as the one other time I moved away. I will miss the easy friendship that my sisters and I have as adults now. I expect to visit often though. I can't have my nephew forgetting who his favorite aunt is.
Moving always brings a lot of change. I am anticipating this move though. I wish it could be done sooner. A new beginning. A new phase to my life. Not without it's hazards though. The stress of planning a move, my finances, worrying about my family, about Jeni....it adds up. I haven't slept well the last couple of weeks. Lack of sleep is starting to wear me down. I am going to need a vacation after I move.
I am beginning to settle down though. I think the stress and lack of sleep are from the initial, Oh Lord can I do this. Not, not wanting too, but financially in the time-frame I am planning for. I have had my initial burst of scrambled panic. Tends to put me into planning mode. That mode allows me to gather data and sort through minute details. Allows me to reflect on my decision and dislodge any illusions I may have. Then I can settle down into my decision and work toward my goal. I am settling down now. This is a good thing, maybe I can sleep again.
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Date: 2003-07-25 01:41 pm (UTC)